Yea,so I think I definitely need to..or need to consider going back to counseling. Idk what is wrong with me. Sometimes I feel like I’m about to burst because I miss her so much or just because she died and I’m still blown about it. My ESL teacher is 71 yrs old and mentioned,in passing,that her father died and he was 99 yrs old. Why was my initial reaction to rush her and be like…my mom died too?? I don’t know. It feels like a lot sometimes. Sometimes it doesn’t. Lately it has felt like a lot. Really heavy.