I think it’s amazing sometimes how lonely I can feel without my mom here. I think I mentioned before that in her absence everything else is magnified. So it can be a completely unrelated circumstance, but once everything comes full circle, it’s like, “And your mom isn’t here”. I wonder sometimes if that’s weird. If all people who have had a parent pass away feel that way. If all people who have had a family member, especially if they were close, feel that way. Sometimes I feel like I have no one. And while I know that not necessarily the case…it is how I feel..and I wonder if, at times…well. It’s not the truth. But I wonder if I’ll ever not feel this way.